Fighting With My Words

I think sometimes I'm able to get a lot of writing done or work completed late at night because I'm too tired to let my ADHD and learning disability hold me back. At that point I can't be afraid of bad spelling or grammatical mistakes, I just have to finish the work.

Sometimes I'm afraid of bad spelling like it could happen out of nowhere. Like a shark attack. 

I'm swimming and all of a sudden a shark appears. 

I'm writing and suddenly I'm not sure if a word looks right. Should I continue? Do I look it up or do I give up that word and replace it with one I know I can spell. 

It's a panic.  I've been pulled under, drowning and I have to re-read out loud everything I've written two or three times and check the dictionary or thesaurus. 

This is everyday writing my blog. 

Day 59 of 365 Feet Project

Sometimes Things Are Fuzzy

Sometimes things are fuzzy in life and that's okay. This is me on Canada Day 2013, my head hurt that day. My head hurt for most of the summer and fall that year. I had been sick, grumpy and worried about being sick.

I wasn't up to going to see the fireworks and we thought the noise might have made me feel worse. 

But I do like a good show. So, Yuri and I stood in front of our apartment in the street to watch.  A couple of our neighbors joined us. 

Not many of my pictures were any good. Most were fuzzy but I'm glad I didn't stop trying to capture moments even when I couldn't see them clearly.

 Day 58 of 365 Feet Project

A Pile Of Happiness

This photo reminds me of all the things I want to get done and everything I have to do. Each stone is either a task or an opportunity. 

I need to write my bio for both my blogs as well as the about pages. It seems silly to be creating content everyday and not have those two things done. 

I want to begin painting several projects that have been floating in the back of my mind. My ideas like to whisper "make us, it'll be fun". But at the same time I have actual homework I need to complete. 

I'd like to have a story I wrote so long ago published. But to do that I need to get over my fears of rejection and send it out into the world. I also fear spelling mistakes and poor choice of words. 

I have a keynote speech and presentation to create. Two things I'm equally excited and nervous about.   

And of course there are two delightful little boys to cuddle. To clean, feed and rock to sleep. 

When I look at this photo it reminds me that I'm surrounded by a happy life. 

Day 57 of 365 Feet Project

Titles Are Hard

Titles are hard. That's what is going through my mind while I stare at these photos remembering the day I took them. A good day. 

To take the photo of my foot I stood on the edge of the dock leaning over a bit. Yuri held me in place so I didn't fall into the water. He comes in handy for that kind of thing a lot of the time. 

I also thought about naming  the post, My Favorite People, because I included Yuri and Rosie. They looked very photogenic that day.

I enjoy naming things but sometimes I'm at a loss for an interesting relevant title.  I'm probably going to start writing titles like help! trapped in a box... That's how I sometimes subject my emails to my mother. She's not always amused. 

Day 56 of 365 Feet Project

On The Docks

I think my next few posts will be taken from 2013 when I had a picnic with my family at Hecla Island. I took many photos as always and I've used a couple to create Wandering banner. 

The weather was terrible for a picnic but fantastic for taking pictures of foreboding clouds and a shifty looking pelican. 

Day 55 of 365 Feet Project

Day 54

Playing around with Picasa. Taken on one of the docks at Hecla. 

Day 54 of 365 Feet Project

I Miss The Ocean

I miss the ocean and the sand under my toes. The sun heating my face and watching it dip slowly into the sea. I like the conversations I have with water. Large bodies of water that I can walk along for hours.

I can't wait to introduce my sons to the ocean. I wonder what they'll talk about.

Day 53 of 365 Feet Project

Two Little Otters

Oberon is having a serious conversation with his otter Otis. 

Day 52 of 365 Feet Project

I Must Be Sleepy

I was going through my photos and found this one. At first I thought it was a preparatory photo for one of my typography assignments.  But I looked at the date and its boxing day close to 5 am.  So this is just the beginnings of messiness and probably the influence for Beginnings Are Always Messy

Day 51 of 365 Feet Project

Stealing Apples From My Mother's Yard

Actually she made me help. If I wanted to be supplied with applesauce for the whole winter I had to help out.  

I'm not complaining, I had a lot of fun and I like to be useful. I also like to be lazy so I'm constantly at odds with myself. 

I love apples or it is known that I love apples. I think that has become a part of my personality or what people from when I was little think about me... That's Anna she really loves apples, she eats them everyday. 

Its not that I love the taste of them. Some types I hate, really hate but I can never remember their names. So, if anyone goes to the store for me and buys apples. I have to put up with whatever I get. 

As a child I was very sick and I found that frustrating. I believed the saying "An apple a day keeps the doctor away".  I ate a lot of apples. As an adult I don't particularly like them. I'm not a huge fan of apple pie but I do love apple sauce. 

I have learned that the saying is true. Actually apples can keep anyone away if you throw them hard enough. Helpful tip: always am for the face and then run away. No one expects to be bombarded with fruit.   

Day 50 of 365 Feet Project

Conversations With My Babies

The babies were 4 months yesterday and already formed people with lots of personality. 

I"m not sure about being a mom. I think perhaps I'm not good at it. I was talking to Artis yesterday that maybe he should have picked someone else to be his mother. He gave a non-committal squeak and shrug. 

I can't cook to other people's standards, I'm not good at cleaning, he will get his pants ironed once in a blue moon and I'm afraid of sewing machines. I can't drive a car and I'm not sure where to stick him and his brother on my scooter. 

But I'll tell him stories and I'll share all my jokes with him and Oberon. I'll also share my toys and paint supplies. 

I began thinking of scenarios that could happen in the future and how I would possibly react. 

6 year old Artis: I'm living in the tree house! Me: Cool, I will too! Screw society grab some blankets and bring the bag of apples. 

10 year old Oberon: I'm joining the circus. Me: I'll come with you. We can be Anna and her flying bambinos, we will work the trapeze or human canon. I just have to get over my fear of falling. During our breaks we will sneakily throw peanuts at the lion tamer because he's stuck up. But we will be friends with the lion. 

My scenarios got more elaborate as I rocked Artis. 

Day 49 of 365 Feet Project

Will Our Car Be Towed?

Went out to get information on immigration. While looking around for a parking spot and a meter to pay. A man popped out of a store telling us where we could park for free. He laughed gleefully as we listened to him so I was a little worried in the meeting that our car might not have been where we left it.

Day 48 of 365 Feet Project

My Monday Morning

Rocking a baby with my feet while I finish feeding the other one. The picture is a little fuzzy and no one wanted to smile for the camera. This morning we watched Tim's Vermeer as we had breakfast and baths. We took a break from our favorite show Pocoyo, we like to learn through laughter.

Day 47 of 365 Feet Project

A Little More Of Orchard House

I take tons of photos wherever I am and I never seem to use most them. I haven't shared them with many people. But I'm not going to stop, I enjoy documenting my adventures. 
So here are some lovely photos of Louisa May Alcott's Orchard House. It's such a beautiful place.

Little Feet At A Little House

Sometimes when I'm in Stow I like to visit Louisa May Alcott's Orchard House. I took the tour during Christmas and in the Summer. The tours were different enough that I found them both worthwhile.  I loved the books when I was a teenager. Now as a working artist and filmmaker I'm more interested in the actual writer's life and her relationship with her family. They are fascinating to me. I plan to do lots more research into the Alcott family and of the influence they had on their community. It seems different family members inspired the framework for school, social work, and other artist's endeavors.

Day 46 of 365 Feet Project

Where Are We?

I know this is from the spring, probably after one of our walks but the funny thing is there are no other pictures that go along with this one.  I find that so odd because I take a lot of pictures. I don't always remember what was happening from my feet photos alone, I almost always have a couple photos of my surroundings. Something that describes the day. 

This one is all by itself taken with my camera phone. I like it. Simple but pretty. I think it was a good day. 
Day 45 of 365 Feet Project

Music For The Morning

Sometimes I wonder what people think of me. Stopping to take pictures of my feet everywhere and anywhere. But then I realize I don't care. I like my feet. 

Last Christmas a good friend got me tickets to see the Winnipeg Symphony. It was a morning performance/practice. I don't remember what the piece was and I didn't hear the difference when the conductor said he made sight changes. But it was lovely and different. I took my mom and we had a great time. 

Day 44 of 365 Feet Project

Not My Shoes

Yuri had a birthday. He has them every year. I get very excited, he's a year older then me. So, everything happens to him first.  He's old. I'm not. It makes me happy. 

We went to this fantastic restaurant at the Forks. The food was so pretty and delicious but the twins had already taken over my stomach. Not much room to stuff my face...brats. 

For his birthday I wanted to be tall, at least over 5'1". Yuri is 6'4" so I always look like a hobbit next to him. I borrowed my little sister's shoes, but I had trouble walking. I wasn't use to being so far from the ground. 

I realize now god blessed me with shortness. 

I came across this heart while I stumbled around the footpath. 

Day 43 of 365 Feet Project

Taken On A Sunday

I have the song "Sunday Kind of Love" in my head. I didn't think I liked that song but it's grown on me.

I love my rain boots. Every time I put them on I feel like a child. 

I'm at a weird time of day, 6 am. I've been awake for awhile and the boys are sleeping. They are beginning to sleep longer at night but I'm not use to it yet. They will want to eat soon and I should get some things done but I don't want to make any noise. 

Day 42 of 365 Feet Project

Those Are My Dice

I'm not sure if it's still Tuesday. My sleep is completely off now because of the twins. I know Monday wasn't Monday when I posted. 

I use to play D and D every Sunday with friends. I like the storytelling aspect of it. 

I would really love to find nice big turquoise dice. 

Day 41 of 365 Feet Project

It Still Feels Like Monday

Day 40 of 365 Feet Project

Day 39

I was left alone in the car. My mom didn't even crack a window. 

Day 39 of 365 Feet Project

Sneakers Old And New

My favorite place to walk. 

I'm pretty sure the construction workers thought  we were odd for lying down on the sidewalk. 

Day 38 of 365 Feet Project 

Sea My Feet

Vancouver seawall. 

Day 37 of 365 Feet Project

My Boots Are From The Kid's Section

I really can't wait for spring to come. It's been on my mind for days. Spring never seems to last long enough in Winnipeg. 

One thing I can't wait to do with my boys is race boats.  When it begins to rain you make a little paper boat and get dressed up in all your rain gear. Then you find a little hill where the water is flowing down the street and race with a little boat. 

I would do this sometimes with my little sister Alexina when we were small. 

I was living in Vancouver I did this a few times. I missed home also the weather and streets are perfect for little boat racing. 

Day 36 of 365 Feet Project

Waiting At The Airport

On our way to Stow, we were held at the airport. 
So we decided to have the best day ever

Day 35 of 365 Feet Project

Dandelions And Other Things

One time when I was younger in the spring before the city sprayed for mosquitoes. My mother had us go outside to pick dandelions. A couple of bowls full.  After she washed them all, she made dandelion salad and dandelion butter. I think she made more things but I don't remember. The food was pretty but I think the dandelions were a bit bitter. 

Day 34 of 365 Feet Project

I Want All The Cookies

I'm not good at cooking.  I get bored and don't know enough to improvise. That's a problem because now I have twins that I'm going to have to feed. 

For Christmas I was given a cookbook by my mom and I have been trying to make actual healthy meals.  I own a lot of cookbooks so that wasn't really my problem. 

What I do love is baking and making soups. With soups I feel all witchy when I'm cooking over a cauldron. With baking I get as many cookies as I want. Also, everything looks prettier when  you bake. 

Since I had the twins all I want are donuts. Donuts for every meal. 

Day 33 of 365 Feet Project

I Love To Play

I've posted everyday for a month, I'm really pleased with myself. Now I have to make sure I correctly number my posts because I can no longer follow just by date. 

Taken 2013 on Mother's Day. That year my siblings and I celebrated with our mom in the park. 

I love to play, tag is my favorite game. I love to play every version of tag, freeze, hide and seek tag, as well as "what time is it Mr wolf?". My second favorite thing to do is swing. I like that you can get lost in your head when you swing. Some of my best stories and jokes I've told myself have been on a swing. 

In the picture beyond my feet are my older brother Thane and my older sister Seraph playing tick tack toe.

Seraph is one of the reasons I began taking feet photos. She hates my feet. When we were little she wouldn't let me have my feet on the couch if she were sitting on it too. She didn't like it when my feet were bare. I don't know why she finds them so hideous. But she spent a lot of my childhood telling me they were gross.  

I think because of that I decided to like them twice as much as she hated them. I'm a brat that way. My sisters keep asking why I take pictures of my feet. It's because I can. 

I haven't told them about this project it would just be added to the list of my eccentricities.

Day 32 of 365 Feet Project

Wandering Around An Artshow

Taken with my camera phone at the Winnipeg Art Gallery for 100 Masters. 

That day was a Sunday, I rode over on my scooter and it began to ran. When I got there I was a soggy otter. I was so cold in the gallery but I didn't want to go home until I saw the whole show. 

Lately I've really wanted to go back for their new show of  Dali. I'm really looking forward to taking the boys to museums and galleries as they get older. Just two little people experiencing art for the first time. Should be interesting. 



Day 31 of 365 Feet Project